Jibun no risou oimotomeru Kedakaki kokou no ukigumo no you ni
-- Akashi by Takashi Kondo(Hibari Kyoya) --
I post this lyric just because I like to, no I kidding, i post this because i believe in this Hibari-like logic. I,myself say that his logic is true, because I believe that pride is important.
Being prideful is not embarassing at all.
Why? Because pride make us pursued our believed strength or ideals. If we lose to someone, our pride wouldn't want to admitted that we lose, and we'll keep trying, training, and fight untill we got something we want : victory.
I believe in my ideals about this. I don't care if someone try to mock me because of this, I'll 'torn' them up if they dare to.
So, let's just say... that if you're nervous over something, walk with it. Nervous is natural, all people must have something they're nervous at. And i, myself, sometimes was being attacked by the feeling called nervous, lots of time. And now, I decide to walk with my own ideals and ignored that 'nervous' feelings i had deep in my heart.
If some people sees me as an enemy and decided to ignored me, I don't care a thing about it.Call me antisocialist or something else like that, because I think that I AM an antisocialist.
I hate doing something that I hate to, and I hate being tied up or restrained by anything or anyone, and that's what makes me becomes me. And just for your information: it's not like I'm just trying to be like Hibari Kyoya. I was always be ,and will be myself ,and I'm not going to let someone changes that ideals from me! Well... I had to admitted that sometimes I'm trying to be like Hibari Kyoya, i always trying to be stronger than everyone, because I feel like that's the only thing that could make me protect something that I dear most.
... I spoke too much for a someone who doesn't like to talk. So, I bid farewell now~
Arrivederci, all....
